MY JOURNAL

i am home!

2009-06-26T16:39:13Z

but i have absolutely no furniture. rick generously let me use his sleeping bag and a pillow, which so far i have utilized as:

a bed
a computer chair
a mail hutch

truly the list could go on and on.

OH, speaking of MAIL,

i just opened a DEBT COLLECTION notice. apparently toria, baggins and fyler forgot their promise to pay january's electricity bill which was in my name. i was out of the country so there was no way i could find out it was unpaid. now i have fucking DEBT COLLECTION stamped on my mail while toria's talking about CD deposits!!!

YES I AM MAD but not opposed to peaceably resolving what was probably just a harmless accident that i'm taking too personally

A Backward Glance

2009-01-03T07:47:32Z

friends!

2008-12-23T00:34:31Z

friends!

in less than a month now (even less than a february from now) i will be very far away, traveling in strange and distant lands. i would like to keep in touch with most of you.

in january, tsouni and i will be traveling to INDIA for a couple months and then onward to BANGKOK and from there ALL OVER southeast asia. for months we will be living out of backpacks and guesthouses and eating for pennies a day. there will be snakes! under no circumstances will i have dreadlocks (no guarantees)

so please leave me your address (or email it to me so that i can contact you online or offline)

"There are corners ahead but we have no reason to believe this shaft terminates." -a machine proverb

2008-10-28T06:26:17Z

Notes on the observation of the average U.S. citizen, circa October 27th, 2008
(source unknown)

The average height of a male human in the United States of America is 188 centimeters. Median age is 23 years. The average hair color is brown, with a median length of 4 centimeters. All subjects exhibit symptoms of the same minor health defects: allergy to animal fur, occasional palpitation of heartbeat, dry skin.

The average day begins approximately 240 minutes after sunrise, with the subject asleep in bed. After regaining consciousness, the subject will sit in bed and attempt to communicate with a partner. If no partners are present, the human will usually forage for something to ingest. If after this process the human remains alone, he or she will usually read a book while seeming unable to decide what to do next. All subjects were observed spending the morning in deep contemplation and were rarely seen to do anything of note.

Once contacted by another human, the subject's day changes dramatically. It is curious that the human seems to wait for the presence of another before interacting with the outside world. For our sample group this seemed universally true.

Consistent with our hypothesis, when left alone the human seemed to do nothing at all to engage its surroundings. More testing is necessary to determine whether this behavior is learned or innate. We suspect the sample population can be conditioned out of this stifling self-limitation.

My team will give notice with any development. We mustn't forget our duty to improve the quality of life of the average human. Our future depends on symbiosis and we do not take our jobs lightly.

this is a great story

2008-08-19T20:20:25Z

today i paid lots of money to a woman to make my right arm hurt very bad and stouni and i spent the last 2 hours making a very demanding dinner that hasn't cooked yet and may never cook

i am now inoculated against hepatitis A and typhoid and we have been going to borders to read travel guides about south east asia. i have to go home SOON because we have a tour (with m&k) to get ready for!! god i suck

also our song "bedroom music" (the one from the bacardi advert) is going to be the theme to a cartoon on french TV!! hahahaha haha haaha

i haven't made any music in a long time i am going crazy

london weather has not been very summery but i am glad i could come here after norway. speaking of norway, it was amazing! expensive and grey and full of the nicest people...nicer than you could ever imagine, seriously!

i miss my family a lot and i miss my friends and i miss hanging out with dustin. i think this little tour will be very fun!

now we pray for our soggy quiche.

avismavis @ 2008-06-04T01:09:00

2008-06-04T06:10:02Z

porn for the blind

2008-04-15T07:01:26Z

i have been feeling so crazy lately
i can't even describe it!

this website is absolutely amazing
http://www.pornfortheblind.org/

in my opinion the internet killed the underline

2007-12-16T05:07:53Z

1919 is sooo cold! i hung out with joe this evening. as it turns out, joe is a very cool guy. it was a girl's birthday party and 90% of the people at the show were very young and new to the idea of a radical shared space. i think it was a really positive event in spite of the oppressive cold and low turnout. this band called The Lashouts, with '50s pin-up girls printed on their amps, were the official soundtrack to having a goatee. they were very talented. i spent most of the show talking to the birthday-girl's mother about 1919 and its neighbors, and now she wants to donate all the junk in her garage. (we gave her ramsey's email address)

i tidied up the free-store a bit more and brought home two books: 50 Great American Short Stories and Exploring Painting. which reminds me, i've been downloading The Joy of Painting with Bob Ross - Season XVI for three days now and its finally finished. now i am going to go eat beans and rice and daydream about making out with my grrlfriend.

taco confessional

2007-12-13T08:54:16Z

i can't believe rusty and mikaylah haven't complained about me basically vegetating on their living room futon for like 2 weeks. if dustin and i finish a decent sized handful of these pop-punk songs tomorrow, i'll be able to go to fort worth and get ready for CHRISTMAS which this year is going to officially be the best christmas ever. which is good because i'm a little sad thinking about how i'm never again going to get fucked up useless gifts from my mom...

for some reason last christmas she gave my brothers a big box of trash. literally like garbage that she put into a huge box and wrapped and was very secretive about. and when they opened it she just laughed at them. my mom was so cool.

this time next week i'll be in london kissing my girlfriend before she bikes off to work. the universe is playing a strange game with me and i am going to win it.

BACK TO FORT WORTH

2007-11-23T17:06:17Z

i am leaving behind beige walls and oat colored carpet
and responsibility over my dad
its a lonely road i'm on
and it leads home
not that my home is even "home" yet
i have mountains of boxes
and sheets stapled to the walls
and i haven't unpacked my suitcase in months!

so i hope everyone forgives me
for being a recluse for a couple weeks
i reeeeally need some alone time

avismavis @ 2007-11-15T00:38:00

2007-11-15T07:38:49Z

my dad is opening beer after beer
its gross

Anthony Davis

2007-11-05T14:03:40Z

this is a picture of my bag.

LIST OF THINGS THAT SHOULDN'T HAPPEN TO A PERSON a.k.a. THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME

2007-11-05T05:39:04Z

MY MOM
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my mom passed away at 1:10am on October 30th. it was very peaceful. in bed her breathing became shallow and my dad told her that she was strong and that she could go if she wanted to. she was with her friends the evening before and my brothers were visiting them only a day before. i was in london having the time of my life, which i think she wanted. her memorial is tomorrow at 10am at St. Ann's on Alsbury in Burleson. sorry to those who i haven't had a chance to invite. i seriously won't be offended if you don't come. i'll be embarassed participating in mass because my mom really wanted me to. plus i got a suit today and it doesnt fit.

BWI AIRPORT
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3rd November, last night: on the way back from the UK we had an overnight layover. we didn't have a hotel or anything so we asked around to find a place that would be safe to sleep at the airport. Craig Jackson of the Maryland Aviation Administration told us we could sleep on the "Upper Observation Gallery" which was to be closed to the public overnight. the cleaning staff practically escorted us there, and hung out with us while we "unwound". and after checking my emails they left us alone, and i put my laptop in my carry-on bag and fell asleep.

something should be said about my carry-on bag. my mom always told me to keep my valuables in my carry-on bag, for obvious reasons. which i did, rather than keep them in my luggage. the irony is that when i woke up at 4am, my clothes were still there but my carry-on bag was 100% missing.

MY BAG
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inside my bag, as best i can remember, were:

1. my laptop (with all best fwends art and music, finished and in progress, as well as years of my samples, other work and stuff. not backed up anywhere else. please don't comment about this, i don't need any help coming up with "what if"s)
2. my passport, and wallet, social security card, other important shit like that.
3. all of my money. (enough money to do some very productive things. things i've been aching to do for so so so long and now i am penniless.)
4. letters/scraps/mementos (i'm furious about this)
5. my headphones/CD/tape player (I DONT EVEN HAVE HEADPHONES NOW)
6. my iPod shuffle (with BF instrumentals)
7. my american cell phone and my UK cellphone, and my oyster card

8. i'll finish this list later its making me depressed to do this

THE REPORT
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SO i asked for the police. and this guy Edgar Caraballo (cop serial #1166) of the Maryland Transportation Authority Police comes up to the Observational Gallery.

Cop: "Who has the problem?"
Me: "...Hello sir... My bag containing 100% of my valuables was stolen. My passport, my wallet, my laptop, everything..."
Cop: "Well what do you want me to do about it?"
Me: [confused...helpless?] "Uhhh. I don't know, it was stolen from me."
Cop: "What were you doing up here? I need to see some ID."
Me: "It was stolen...I'm sorry, I have nothing left."
Cop: [pointing to Dustin] "What about you, let me see some ID. You're not supposed to be up here"
Both of us: "We got permission"
Cop: "Nobody can give you that permission"
Me: "Craig Jackson of Landside Operations--"
Dustin: "--From the MAA, we got permission"
Cop: "Hold on. Nobody can give you that permission. Only we can, the Police. You're not supposed to be up here."

it went on just like that. i asked about security tapes and the cop suggested that they wouldn't matter. the cop took the details and "filed a report". My copy of the report was a scrap of paper with a number scribbled on it. He told me that they'd take care of it.

When I called from Atlanta (my next layover on this horrific journey) the cops had changed shifts (that explains a lot) and on the phone (Corporal Hanks(?) who was very polite) said Caraballo hadn't filed the report. I begged him to find someone to review surveillance and/or look in a dumpster for my bag. Eventually I called back and found out that nobody would do anything until Edgar Caraballo got back on duty.

We suspect the cleaning staff. My only valuable possession in the world is a Travel Scrabble set and I'll never lose it.

family

2007-10-29T11:32:07Z

my dad sent me a sad email this morning
which i can't write about in live journal
but here is a picture of my family hanging out in colorado

iceland airwaves nite show

2007-10-23T10:55:03Z

there were many people here
and the stage was crammed with photographers
its hard to crowd surf on a photographer

iceland airwaves day show

2007-10-23T10:52:59Z

i had a beard and sunglasses and i break danced
until i shaved my beard and lost my sunglasses

avismavis @ 2007-08-29T09:29:00

2007-08-29T14:43:08Z

much of the time my mom is very unpleasant
it sucks......................because i'm supposed to be here to hang out with her but increasingly i have to struggle with the confusing feeling that i really don't like being with her

things are sort of changing but really nothing is happening
tomorrow is my day off so i need to do the following things
1."m.y.s.e.l.f." art
2.TABC certification (ugh)
3.lovekevins remix
4.move into a house!?!?!?
from japan:

oh yeah our "music video" is dumb and our label "likes" it :(

NO MORE LONG YEARS

2007-07-26T13:10:47Z

i can't sleep...ever!! unless i literally pass out when i hit the bed
i've been working overtime on very repetitive and uninspiring music
i am beginning to notice there is something wrong with my brain (i'm serious)

i am moving to fort worth in a few days.

HAPPY YADHTRIB, RICK

2007-06-15T07:50:48Z

[the following journal was written by Sivad "Otatop" Ynohtna, a being from another dimension]

In just over a day from now, the one you know as "Rick" will become 24, thereby losing another year from his life. Only days after this yadhtrib, Rick will begin a long fruitless employment at a place called Kroger, while tirelessly doing many nice things for the [future] international mega-corporation 1919 Hemphill.

Of course in your time you know 1919 to be a fledgling community space and you know Rick to be one of its most dedicated and responsible members. Little do you realize that in the year 2012, cyborg lord Rupert Murdoch himself will personally hunt down and kill Rick and many other friends of 1919 just before buying the little space and turning it into a 24-hour-a-day homeless-person-generator (the popularity of which are surprisingly unexplainable even with the huge amount of sociology degrees your era generated).

But ah yes, back to your present. ...Hmm. I'm trying to think of other notable happenings in this Earth-human's life. Ah yes! After being in a nearly infinite list of (according to my people) talentless and misguided bands, he will join a band called Retro-Spectro, hailed by many in my dimension as "the ultimate party band (of 21st century Earth)". Ah yes now I'm remembering. Wasn't that the band with the infamous child molester Dustin Pilkington, and the man who discovered the use of arcane magic, Anthony Davis? And if memory serves me correctly, the drummer of that band becomes the first man to have his legs surgically attached to his torso and his arms attached to his groin. He is amazing to behold but his life ends in misery.

The purpose of this message, finally, is to warn Rick of great catastrophies that only he can prevent. If you see him, tell him this: "When th[message corrupted]

PROUD COMMANDER ASSHOLE

2007-04-20T08:55:28Z

i always learned what other people didn't know
now i don't know what other people know

KINDA I WANT TO

2007-04-18T13:50:09Z

we'll be playing our first two UK shows on saturday
nobody seems to understand how gut-wrenching that is

OUTSIDE OF YOU

2007-04-10T22:44:19Z

last week i got caught stealing and i still got away with it

KIDS OF THE BLACK HOLE

2007-04-06T09:05:54Z

"accidentally"